As the day gets closer, I admit I'm nervous. It seems as though there isn't enough time to get everything done. My calendar is a sure reminder each day that time is ticking. Today I looked and there are precisely 38 days before I pack up the car with my dad and we start the 20 hour drive. As I look at my list of things to do it seems nearly impossible. Finish buying supplies, pack my bags, quadruple check that I have everything, buy the items I forgot the first three times I checked, pre-pay my phone bill, clean my room, get all paperwork in order, get parents on my accounts etc etc. With all this going on I've realized it's so easy to lose sight of what is important. Spend time with family, thank those who support me, and even moreso, continue praying. I have gotten lost in all the stuff that needs to be done that I forgot to pray over it. Who forgets to pray over a trip that God destined? Yup, that's me. Simple, human, me.
Last night, when I got home from work I finally did what I truly needed to do. I spent time with God. I opened my Bible for the first time in what seemed like weeks and was reminded that while it is so easy to get caught up in everything wrong, I still need to remember that God ordained this for my life, and He has it all under control. [Psalm 119:105-"Your word is a lamp to my feet, and a light to my path."]
His word was all I needed to remind me of my path. This is not for me. This is not for my friends, not for my family. THIS IS FOR GOD. Once I realized that His words continue leading me, I felt an utmost sense of relief and urgency. The days are counting down, but my focus is no longer on what I need to do in order to be prepared. My focus is on God alone. It is urgent that I share His word NOW! Why wait until I get to Cimmaron? Why wait until the "time is right?" Time is running out. Not until I leave, but until He comes again!
If we knew that God was coming back on say Tuesday at 9am, what would our focus be on? I can say with complete certainty that my focus would not be getting ready for this trip. I'd be preparing people for the one trip that matters: Eternity.
As I end this thought, I want to encourage you. Please don't spend today thinking about what needs to be done for tomorrow. "Dream as if you have forever, live to make each moment last."
